it’s 2:52pm PST in the afternoon, on the eave of my 24th birthday and I’m day dreaming about my job. Not the current job, the dream job.
I have a business meeting in 30 minutes and I’ve spent majority of my day researching fashion trends, and online clothing boutiques, seller’s permits, and small business tax laws in the state of CA. I have done nothing to prepare for this meeting coming up, not knowing what my new role at this company will entail. I’m soon to be 24 and all I want to do is start my own venture, but I’m too much of a wimp to take the risk. I NEED RESEARCH. MORE RESEARCH. That’s what I keep telling myself. That’s the nature of starting a business isn’t it? Research, followed my tenacity, then more research.
But… then, what? Do I go out on the limb and leave the security of my day job to pursue an online business? Do I attempt to start this venture as a side gig until it takes off? I know that I’ve always wanted to own my own boutique one day, and I’ve come to realize that the older I get, the more I have to lose. So why not start my venture now? My current career path has been a great experience and I have had many opportunities, but is this for me? I couldn’t answer that. Am I happy here? Sometimes, sure. Am I engaged? I think so, but that’s the nature of who I am as a worker. Other than the fact that I spent hours researching for my business opportunity rather than anything related to the company I’m currently at. Well, that’s not entirely true, I’ve spent a few hours of research for work also.
A few months ago, I relaunched this blog in hopes that it would ignite some sort of passion project for me. I thought that I would be creative, have a portfolio of work of some sort, and that hasn’t happened. I get caught up with work (the current day job, not the dream job), or I sit back and recalculate what the fuck I want this blog to be focused on. I have decided that this blog will be as serendipitous as my career path, and as eclectic as my every day life.
Back to the point–At 23, how do you leave a well paying job that has kept you stable and thriving the expensive marketplace that is the Silicon Valley, and do you leave at all even if it’s not your “dream job?” What is your dream job supposed to feel like anyway? Is it possible to do both–maybe. Is it worth the risk of trying to do it all–I think so. For anyone that has started a business while working full time, I’d love to hear your thoughts on how you made this possible.